Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Yearend Post

Reflecting upon the last year, I find that it has been quite a tumultuous one. Things happened. Shit happened. Learnt a lot. Gained a lot. Lost a lot. Made new good friends. Broke up with a very good old friend too. Handled huge responsibilities. Failed at a few. Rose again. Fell again. But then that is life. That happens all the time, but we don't stop and think about them unless it is the turn of the year. We tend to account a lot of things for this largest unit of time. Things and shit keep happening throughout, we never list them otherwise. This fact irks me the same way it irks Dhirendra Kumar of valueresearchonline.com when everybody celebrates the Sensex passing the 13000 or the 16000 mark, or any other thousand. And that is why I was reluctant to write a year-end post.

Come year end and you have all sorts of lists being compiled up from all directions and on all media. As the clock ticks away to the last few moments of 2008, I am thinking about my lists. I had wanted to blog about my favourite movies, my top-ten songs, my most memorable moments, best blogposts I read, coolest photographs I clicked, my resolutions, things I want to improve next year, basically tens of top-ten lists of the departing year and lists of resolutions for the new year in gestation. But I was either short on time or deprived of genuine inclination. Or maybe I could not decide where to begin, what to pick first from amongst the plethora of ideas I had in mind.

Anyway, however hard I might try not to, I cannot stop myself from considering the new year as a fresh start in life. Have many things in mind, haven't listed them though. Listing them and not being able to fulfil them hurts. But sometime or the other, I need to list them down, else I'd forget them. And I'll have to fulfil what I list. Oops...I already listed down the first and the most important resolution. Before I end up listing a few more of my (dark) secrets, let me wish you all a Happy New Year and bid 2008 adieu!


24 comments:

Anadi Misra said...

Happy New Year to you too...end of the year gets you ina introspective mood...as if we are filling out some sort of balance sheet :)...I suually don't tend to sum up my life at these milestones...only on occasion when I am brooding :P, too much effort....kaun soche :D

My new year aim...motivate self so that I can work on my 'To Do' list :P

Indigo said...

The yearend post with a pinch of pain. Forget the bygone year, and be reset things to a starting point for the new year.

Wish the year is happy and prosperous for you.

Bhuvan said...

Naya saal mubarak ho sir...Purane saal ki baaton aur experience pe mitti daalo ab...meri tarah...kitna dard hai blog mein...

Roli said...

Happy new year baebu...

hey, dont look on the darker side but see on the other side of life. If you wont lose one thing you wont have space to fill it with more other lovely things...

~vagabond~ said...

A very happy new year to you!

"Listing them and not being able to fulfil them hurts."...this sounds exactly like me. But I kinda sorta cheat and still make a list of things I'd like to do in the new year...I just dont show it to anyone, dont tell anyone about it, and keep it well hidden in my diary. It still feels horrible when I dont achieve half of the things I intend on accomplishing in the new year, but then I'm not answerable to anyone but myself for not attaining them. It takes a little of the sting away.

ashes said...

Anadi:

'Milestones' is the word I was looking for :) For me, the thought process goes on, and I list things down to un-jumble them.

Your new year aim looks exactly like mine, only worded differently.

ashes said...

Indigo:

Well yes, but it is slightly different than resetting. I only wish there was a reset or undo button in real life. Lets try to simulate one :)

ashes said...

Bhuvan:

Thanks. Yeah. Actually mitti daal chuka hoon. Year-end par revise kar liya thoda... :P

ashes said...

Roli:

That's a nice philosophy. I am amazed at how did you know about this, I never told you anything. Was I so clear in my post?

ashes said...

Vagabond:

Thanks.

This is not the first time, I've had many similar oh-it-sounds-so-much-like-me's reading some of your posts. However, one aspect where we differ is that I feel the sting even if I am a (secret) failure in only my own eyes :)

Anadi Misra said...

http://www.ebertfest.com/seven/taal.htm

A bemused foreigner's take on Taal :)

Vamsee said...

Ashes,
Happy New Year.
You know, I strongly believe that there are no bad experiences in life. They might seem bad at the time and change the direction of your life. But every single time I felt that my life changed for the better after these instances.

ashes said...

Anadi:

I hate it when Americans describe India as poor. And I hate those Indians who take them to such places. I mean, the highest ticket was Rs 30? And the theatre boasted of both AC and stereo speakers? Which era was that?

Today there are amazing theatres throughout India. Thousands of PVR screens and many other multiplexes. Places like Kanpur have tickets costing 180 bucks. Bangalore mein last weekend Ghajini ke rates 350 per ticket the, which I guess, is at par with the USD cost.

I'd agree with him on his comments about Taal, but I don't like people looking down upon us in any way.

ashes said...

Vamsee:

Thank you. Yeah that is a nice way of looking at things. I have also started feeling that life has changed for the better, but it takes time for the regrets and rues to waive off.

Nidhi said...

Happy New Year! Waise why so sad sad bog? Chalo koi na... this year will be rocking.

Anadi Misra said...

Oh, I skipped that in my 1st reading (not a good sign for my RC skills :P)...was just skimming through...thought you might find it interesting as you have been reviewing a lot of movies of late...

Probably they meant single screen theaters which have cheaper tickets and this was 9 years back...us time single screen ka yeh rate unreasonable nahi tha...I remember seeing many movies for 20-25 bucks (11th class,new found freedom, bunking school, lots of movies :D).

But yes, your indignation is righteous, I too feel the same and more often than not, give it back to them in the same coin :)

ashes said...

Anadi:

Well, even single-screen theatres cost Rs 120-150 in Bangalore now....but yes you are right, I'd seen Sarfarosh for 35 bucks in Modinagar.

~vagabond~ said...

LOL. Looks like we both possess the I-am-harder-on-myself-than-the-world-could-ever-be-to-me streak too.

Sometimes it's just best to let go and accept things as they are without beating yourself up over it.

ashes said...

Nidhi:

Thank you.

ashes said...

Vagabond:

:) @ I-am-harder-on-myself-than-the-world-could-ever-be-to-me. I don't know whether I should be harder or not. Learning to let go is definitely one of the items in my agenda but then that is not about myself but about other things, feelings, and people.

Cuckoo said...

I know I am veryyyy late here to comment though I had read this the day I came back. :)

Well, this is called life. I can understand it is very difficult to even think of letting things go especially people. But you have to divert yourself towards what you have gained... .. for positive vibes. At the same time don't totally forget the goners who have given you beautiful time in the past. Cherish those moments if not people.
And I agree with Roli's views. Naye ke liye jagah to banaani he padegi na.

All the best for year 2009 and ahead.

ashes said...

Cuckoo:

Yeah, I know it is tough letting go, but the good thing is, I am almost over it now.

Thanks. It is anyway difficult to forget someone completely. The good moments still make me sad.

Amiya Shrivastava said...

Bhaiyya nav varsh ki shubhkaamnaayen aapko bhi..achcha hai ki aapke jeevan mein utaar chadhaav hain...chunki hum tippani bahut baad mein kar rahe hain isliye hume yeh bhi pata hai ki nav varsh kaa aarambh aapke liye achcha raha...

yahi kaamna karte hai ki aap naye laksya bana kar saadh len ... pratibha ki to kamee nahin hai aap mein...aur bhavishya sukhad ho!!

ashes said...

Amiya:

Thanks for all the wishes.

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